Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Upside Down

If my life ever stops being a whirlwind I don't know what I'll do. Tear of happiness come to mind. So I did the three hour glucose test....I do NOT have gestational diabetes. Which is awesome because now I'm not terrified if I consume a gram of sugar. I really like my new doctor too, so that's a plus. My appointment this past Monday did not go so smooth though. Apparently Chandler is breech still and has two weeks (she might stretch it to three) to turn head down. I have an appointment for ultrasound on March 4th to estimate his size (extra large I'm sure since apparently I grow linebackers) and to see if he has turned. If he hasn't, she says there is usually a reason why...i.e. placenta in the way, cord in the way, cord around his neck. Yea.....cord around his neck. Followed by a "don't worry about it too much because he could always turn on his own by then." Yea I won't think about a cord around his neck at all between now and then.....woof. If he still has not turned by then, she's more than likely going to schedule a C-Section for me. Which I really don't want for a plethora of reasons.

The other wonderful news....

My Pops has to have an angioplasty Tuesday. Awesome. I'm terrified and he of course is not. His theory is that if he didn't have the surgery then his aortic aneurism would burst on its own in the not so distant future. If he dies on the table then it's maybe a few months early. The surgery is just a possibility of giving him a few more years. Guess I know where I get my pessimistic ways from. I truly know the importance of spending time with the ones you care about before it's too late. I can honestly say that I have learned so much from this man just from working with him since July last summer. It saddens me so much to know that I could have learned more if I had taken the time. Granted I know that I wasn't living in VA for a long time, but I feel like I could have made better efforts along the way. I am happy that I seem to be the only person in our family that he isn't concerned about. I know that sounds bad. What I mean is he is very worried about how everyone would do financially without him. To say he is the pillar of financial stability for most of my family members is an understatement. He more or less has kept the entire family afloat since day 1. But he told me the other day that he wasn't worried about me in that aspect because I am too focused and more or less stubborn. He knows that I will stop at nothing to get what I want and provide the kind of life for my family. He also knows that I married a man that is going to do nothing less of the same. Knowing that I at least have been able to give him that comfort helps. He's been teaching me and Larry (the other person who works at the shop) how to run things. I've picked up a lot of it but I know there are parts I haven't seen yet just because the situation hasn't presented itself. I only hope that I can run things as good as he has for the past 37 years, if not improve on some things. I want nothing more than to make him proud and carry on what he worked his whole life for. So for now school is a no go. I'm still undecided on whether I'm going to withdraw now from my classes or not. I have until March 22nd to decide. I've come to the conclusion that I'll let my ultrasound make the decision for me. If a C-Section is in the future I have to drop because I won't be able to attend the classes. After all of this, having a newborn seems like the easiest part.