I've done good with going to the gym this week (4 times and I still have today and tomorrow). Lately I've been questioning my motives with going to the gym though. Usually I don't see huge results and I get discouraged and slack off. Last month I started dieting without going to the gym. I lost weight pretty fast just from changing what I ate. I was eating every 2-3 hours but I was eating smaller, lower calorie foods. I did see results pretty fast but I gave up. When it comes to slimming down, I usually can do the working out part no problem...the diet is the part that bites me in the ass.
Jaquelyn Kay
I've been trying to find inspiration to get me going and get on the right track. When I was an athlete in high school I always had this secret want of being a fitness model. I remember watching those shows on ESPN and thinking, wow that is awesome. Don't get me wrong, some women overdo it for me. But to be able to see your muscles and have more definition is what I'm talking about. So this week I've been seriously considering committing to it 100%. Because that's what it takes. 100%. I know that in order to do this and not quit, I have to go balls to the wall. The diet change is what's going to be the hardest thing for me. But Vernon told me that if I stuck with this and started to see changes in myself that getting my surgery would be the next step. My stomach really bothers me. A lot of the time it's what makes me quit because it seems like no matter what I do the extra skin and everything won't go away. On one particular fitness model's page that I am really inspired by (Jaquelyn Kay) she has a client that is shaped similar to me and in 18 weeks had a six pack. 18 weeks is a looooong time and I know I have to stay committed the ENTIRE time in order to get the same results. But I'm really thinking about doing it. Maybe this will be the summer that changes everything...
