Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Here we go again...

I'm going to try to use this blog as a way to unwind. This whole car sales thing is ridiculously exhausting. I applied at Wells Fargo for a Personal Banker position on Thursday morning. I got a phone call this morning and set up a date and time for an interview =] I'm pretty excited. I will get a salary but commissions on top of it. In car sales if I don't sell enough I only get $900 a month. NOT gonna fly. I feel so guilty lately. With me not getting the results I was told to expect from this job I feel like I'm letting my family down. Vernon got out of the AF because I assured him I would be able to be the bread winner.

Lately we have been tighter on money than we have ever been. Like back to when we first got married tight. It's my fault. Vernon's kept up with his part of the deal and even though I try as hard as I can....I haven't. It's the worst feeling I've ever had. I'm hoping that I nail this Wells Fargo group interview and the individual one so that I can have a stable job that will easily lead to a career. The car sales thing is not going to be a career. There's no way. The amount of hours is ridiculous and I feel like I miss so much of Vernon and Carson's lives. I feel like I don't have time for myself at ALL. No one is happy from me doing this and it's not bringing in money. Makes no sense to stay.

Hopefully next time I update this thing I'll be on the track to a new career! =]